Well, here I am again, after another near two months of being gone. I'm thinking this isn't working so well. Thanks to everyone that still keeps me in their feed even though nothing's been showing up. It seems like just when I decide to do better, all hell breaks loose.
I'm sitting here on the couch in the dark for the most part, watching my daughter sleep. She broke up with the bad boyfriend today. She knew it needed to be done, but it breaks my heart to see her hurting and she is. Regardless of what he's done to her, she loves him as a person if not a soulmate and it's hurting her to see him crying and begging for her to change her mind.
I'm peripherally involved in a solicitation to commit murder case, and by peripherally, I mean being close to the person currently in prison being held without bond. It's a nasty mess and I'm terrified it's going to end even worse than I'd hoped which will impact the life of someone I love dearly in a way I'm not sure she can come to terms with.
We survived prom and the Kitty Princess' graduation from high school. She's been accepted into VCU Arts which is a major accomplishment, so now all that's left is to get her driving at last so she doesn't have to get dropped off at college like a kindergartener on her first day. That'd be funny in an odd kind of way.
There's hope out there, and trust me I'm not complaining, things could be so much worse, some of YOU are going through things so much worse, but as much as I love my blog, my heart just isn't in it right now. I hope that will change soon, or even later, as long as it changes. Until then, I guess I'll be randomly missing for random unknown lengths of time, just wanted to pop in and write a little bit for those of you I haven't talked to in ages. I feel like singing the wolfpack song. "You're the ten best friends that anyone could have, you're the ten best friends that anyone could have." I think just that statement sums up my pathetic state of mind at the moment huh? Laaaaaaame. ;)
Hope everyone is having a great summer, I think maybe tomorrow I'll finally try to find the energy to level out a spot for my pool and try to get it filled up so me and the Kitty Princess can spend a few lazy days floating around staring up at the sky and just being besties. I love that.
8 comments:
I love your relationship with your daughter! XO
I didn't look into it but I bet "Fail Blog" is probably taken.
Miss having you around. Hopefully you'll get back into the swing of things. You're good at this, (and there are plenty who aren't). Don't take that for granted.
If nothing else at least stop by www.notesowl.blogspot.com I think you'd like it.
Some of the best times spent with my mom is laying on a raft in the pool. It gives us time to bond.
I think everyone goes through the funk... take your time and I'm sure you'll be back sooner than you think.
Alex
I popped over because I was thinking it had been a while since I'd seen you around. I'm sorry you're going through some tough times. In the end, you're talented and when you're ready to come back, plenty of people will be waiting.
Enjoy your summer with your daughter.
As I have had my own share of traumas come in and out of my life, which end up taking the place of writing for a while, I encourage you to give yourself some time and be very forgiving to those days where you don't write (whether that's on your blog, or elsewhere!)
It's okay to take this time! Your writing self will be there waiting!
Good luck with your daughter and her new adventures! And Good luck with your family situation as well...
Hey there, Donna. I have been gone a lot too so I know how you feel when it's like you are failing your blog. It's okay though. LIFE, as someone so typed, just gets in the way sometimes, as much as we would like to punch it in the face every once and a while.
Anyway, I hope you get this message and know that I am thinking about you. Pop on by when you get a chance. No rush! I'll be around. lol
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